Drawing 123 ~ was not supposed to be public; drawn while eating late last night (even though I promised myself not to eat at night) and after eating chocolate cake at my in-laws(even though I promised myself not to eat cake)
"IF MY YOUNGER SELF COULD SEE ME NOW" blared through my brain while reviewing the photographs from my gradeschool friend's 60th birthday party ... so I drew myself to GET REAL.
Get real with the double chin, rolls of fat and unworked muscles..
Get real with my family history of heart attacks and diabetes.
Then I packed that away and tried finding the perfect image to draw for my blog- Jo and Terry playing guitar? Dad looking out over the water? The tree I photographed?
So NO..this is the drawing I drew...and this is the body I have now and now I am authentically choosing to post it and to deal with myself in a loving and powerful way.
Note; See below for some of the follow-on conversations that came about after
"I used to be a life model for drawing classes. Sometimes I think about doing that again! and then I think about all the reasons that I "should" not. "
" I feel i should lose another 10 pounds and then worry what other people will say because I am not that overweight"
" The face - you did not draw your beautiful face and it made me think that that is how you saw yourself! ...you didn't draw your beautiful eyes - youthful skin - that beautiful smile of yours - the hair that we all envied and many still envy for it's health, thickness and shine. You don't even look like a Hartel in that picture..... that's one item..."
"The body - we're 60 hon... we are a slave to no one any more... hair dressers, bosses, opinions, the Jones'es.... okay, we're still slaves to our kids LOL. We are 60 - none of us look good in a bikini anymore! We bred children, we've lived for 6 decades! We have the luck of either rolls, cottage cheese, or hanging skin. I am thankful I have a spouse who loves me for more than my body LOL. "
